Prosperity
|| Whirling Dervishes || Stars and Angels || Fear Nought || Rest in the Anointing || Gaps in your Peace? || Strong Story || Utopia and Shangrila ||Blessing in Leadership Ordination || Retaining Wealth on High || Experiential Luxury || Self Revelations || Cleansing the Soul || Living Forever || Asserting the Self? || Gracious Conditions || Cleansing water and SPIRIT immersion. || Vibrant principles for Future Living |||| Whirling Dervishes || Stars and Angels || Fear Nought || Rest in the Anointing || Gaps in your Peace? || Strong Story || Utopia and Shangrila ||Blessing in Leadership Ordination || Retaining Wealth on High || Experiential Luxury || Self Revelations || Cleansing the Soul || Living Forever || Asserting the Self? || Gracious Conditions || Cleansing water and SPIRIT immersion. || Vibrant principles for Future Living ||He who hides his sin shall not prosper thus it follows that a man who reveals his sins and forsakes them SHALL prosper; for this is the way to true prosperity.
(Prov 28:13 KJV) He that covereth his sins shall not prosper: but whoso confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy.Confession
There are various weaknesses in my former character which I should like to clear up; so that Godhead 'Elohiym may truly prosper my way. How can any follow a man whom you do not know: when you know the dirt on me I cannot get above myself. It is humility in action.
Firstly I fail Him by wavering. I have to decide to be decisive.To follow the implications of His word no matter where it leads. Let every man be a liar, He Who Creates All Things alone is true . Mostly I waver on the point of Romance and sensuality. Part of me desires a wife of unsurpassable purity and beauty. A virgin is what she may be.As befitting a priest of the most high He Who Creates All Things.
Then this leads me to think more on some such a one than on He Who Creates All Things J'shua, so after a while I become lonely for the presence of J'shua. I pray, I weep repentantly, then He is by me again. Not that He left, I did! So that by that I see our abiding in Him alone involves a sacrifice of our fondest thoughts.
Now how can a mostly unemployed man whose occasional work in Painting, Composition,Calligraphy and anatomy and drawing classes as tutor bring glory to He Who Creates All Things? What is the Christian condition of him? Well if the man is innocent of wrongdoing like an ethical Doctor, Nurse or Surgeon and behaves rightly toward his models (most of the work in class is in correcting students work of course) as a Surgeon ought toward his patients then what harm is there?My own Painting eschews all that for it is entirely abstract. Of course legalistic 'Charismatic' 'Pentecostal' and 'Sunday Romans' will throw their hands up in horror. I say this only so that you know as much as necessary to consider what else I say of the He Who Creates All Things J'shua.Whom I love with all my spirit.
DeepNow it so happens(I don't want to make much of it-as it was so brief-I do not want to play 'the victim') when I was a young child I was molested by the older girl who was to seduce me later as a young man also, and in exactly the same way she had me when I was a boy. Ending up 'living' 'together', then, 'married'-turned out she freely molested many peers and collegues, so functioned as a kind of , what they call -a nymphomaniac-a very unhappy creature, ruining many.This led to a private hell of not knowing how to deal with women for about thirty years-nor did I know of it. I was so weak even the weakest of women could order me about easily.They always seduced me never I them. Which brings me to my most wondering pain. At 20 yrs of age living with my seducer yet used as her plaything( she frequently slept with other men) I was beguiled by a younger woman up the road who also was the live in plaything of a hefty bruiser. -such is the spirit I'd imbibed from my original seducer-She led me weakly off on her cosmetic shoplifting jaunts-using me against my will as a foil for her thefts which she then planted in my shirt! We slept together twice on one day, thats all. I put up with it for a few times in order to have warm female company, not for the cosmetics! I feel such a fool even all these years from then. However years later I met someone on the train whom I thought was her, conversed to reveal, and she darkly appeared, while not naming herself to me-as really being her, to allude to 'some how at fourteen doing things like that'. I was puzzled and stunned! Was it her and did she mean me or the bruiser? I have felt deeply guilty about it for over twenty five years. Overshadowed only by a whole series of facts caused by my older wife who thought it no sin to go off on our wedding celebration and have sex with a lunatic mathematician in his hearse! That was just one instance out of her total lack of any love for me. Never once in 15 years of hellish 'marriage' did she say she loved me! Not once! There was much much more and probably far worse. 30 or so that I knew of and many more before I never heard of. There were reasons on her side of course. This is not her story.
Unemployed for Twenty Years
Can I make it as hard as possible for you to believe that He Who Creates All Things would work at all with one such as I. My life in The Anointed One is a miracle itself: shall I be a living rebuke to the easy believerism now prevalent? Yes and more besides. You should not believe me because I am thought 'good'-no, I am an old, old sinner from wayback. The devil nearly totally wrecked my life as a mirror to the wreck he has made widespread in the lives of far too many others.My father is blessed in that he was the agent of life for me yet he cursed me as a boy before the responsibility of youth was upon me(O how important is the Fathers Blessing!)by telling me repeatedly how 'useless'I was-he failing to see my imaginative and creative bent. So I was: as the Father says so it is. It is utterly determinative unless a new word comes from the Father to you in your own prayers(not that false divination of others)to change that. If Elohiym godhead in Jehovah The Anointed One Shekinah Glory can heal me he can surely save you from the burning lake of fiery vomit. For I have been without well paid work for over twenty years.As for most of that time, to escape my fate of 'uselessness' I became first a 'Househusband'then after discarding me because a vasectomy left me listless with less drive and ambition, I became a solo parent. Barely keeping my sanity in the pain I felt. Yet I have a house ;some work now, a role as an artist, tutor and am moderately famous in my country. The future in covenant Israel is brighter than a million suns. From the true things He Who Creates All Things has revealed I know some of the remnant will believe in me as Gods chosen. I do not pro forma just say 'I am nothing'- from the foregoing you yourself can actually see that I am nothing.Let there be no false humility-while cashing the millions-such are liars having no place in heaven whatever. No matter how many are healed or delivered- J'shua doesn't know them. There are no extortioners in heaven.Only truthfull men go there.
Forsaking SinsTo assure you in the ten years spent in the wilderness of church rejection (everwhere I went there was a fiery revival! Yet always- in the end-they threw me out: conclusion-they hate the one I love! Honouring Him with their lips-while their moneyed hearts craved to be far from Him) where over 7 churches bodily threw me out around eleven times. all I taught was obedience to the gospel! I did not know of the Sabbath or Covenant Israel then- I just sought to know the biblical way of things. Plainly they do not want any of it-for THEY HATE He Who Creates All Things! This is an amazing degree of pain for me, how people in the name of J'shua can yet prefer mindless conventions, habits and mens traditions over what is actually clearly without ANY true possibility of misinterpretation( for He Who Creates All Things has so devised his word that deeply entered into trustingly like a little child any apparent mismatch is always precisely excluded by exactly the appropriate text elsewhere; the logic of the whole of his intent is then laid bare to every innocent eye.)
At this time what with the Bible Code, Ron Wyatts archeological discovery of almost all the major biblical sites (Ark of the Covenant, Red sea crossing of Moses, Noahs Ark) and what the Creation Science people contribute and my rediscovery of the deepest bible secrets( Skull Hill Anniversary Return 2030 A.D.,Migration to Covenant Israel, Meeting Procedure Timetable and Communion) can anyone say that the time is not urgent!
MARANATHA
Philip O'Sullivan
apostle@paradise.net.nz
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